When depression makes me numb

Posted: 7th July 2017 by Elizabeth

The lack of feeling anything is, paradoxically, a terrible feeling.

People who don’t experience or understand depression are often told that it’s not as simple as feeling sad. This is more true than I can adequately describe; there are many facets to depression. One symptom that I wish more people understood is feeling numb. A sense of hollowness – like a dull, numb lump – often defines me when I’m really down. It’s a shitty, zombie state of grey flatness. Life passes by and you won’t bother to wave at it – because you don’t really care. In fact, you just don’t really feel anything.

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Little things to love

Posted: 26th June 2017 by Elizabeth

I thought it would be pretty cool to start a regular list of little things that have made my days happier or easier. Sometimes it’s eating a packet of salt and vinegar chips. Other times it’s deciding not to wear a bra (a.k.a the iron cage), or getting to bed super early to read soothing articles on The Mighty.

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The blur of brain fog

Posted: 15th June 2017 by Elizabeth

I’ve just woken up and my head is in a spin.
I’m about to do something, but I can’t quite remember what it was.
I’m talking to someone, but I struggle to follow the conversation.

Am I dotty? Drugged? In serious need of coffee? Nope, it’s the creeping muddle of brain fog.

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